I want to wear a spandex bikini but I am pretty sure that my close minded friends would not agree with something like that. The guys that I hang out with have a certain outlook on life and nothing I do is going to change that. I have actually thought about moving to another state in order to live the life that I feel I want to live but I am not sure I can do something like that. I want them to understand that there is nothing different about me just because I am wearing swimwear that they may not agree with but I know that is asking too much of them.
I have thought about showing a couple of them the spandex bikini designs that I like online to get an idea of what they think about them. But I know I would have to make a big joke out of it and that would defeat the purpose. Since I feel the need to make a joke about the bikinis I want to wear it means that they could very well be going along with the joke because they think that is how I truly feel.
You can see my dilemma in all of this now. I want to wear my spandex bikini out in public but I don’t want them to think less of me for doing so. I also want to see how they feel about items like this without coming right out and saying that I love them. I really wish there was a way that I could subtly find out how they would feel about me wearing a bikini to the beach with them without giving away that that is what I want to do. Why is life so complicated when it comes to things that you really enjoy and yet so easy when it comes to things that you really couldn’t care less about?